@Whim Boy you have a lot of courage When I'm having a really hard time I just close in stop talking and rely probably too much on meds. I can't open up to anyone not even doctors. I have had recurrent depression and anxiety and psychosis  since I was 25 after nearly losing my daughter as a newborn. but now just talk about it in systems and just my meds can't talk about my personal life to anyone except my husband. and saying that only sometimes. I agree with you on the people on this forum their the best of the best. and I have learnt so much from them seems they have the wisdom of thousand lives. I wish you peace going to the phy is hard the first time but it is so worth it. Being a mental health I think would make it hard to go and get help but it also makes you more vulnerable to mental illness. You can't tell me that you guys sometimes don't take on to much and maybe sometimes take your work home with you. thank you for caring enough to take on such a caring job. it says a lot about you and how good you must be Good on ya. ... View more

hey, @hope77 sorry I have been away for so long (guilty face) Having a hard time. Early this year one of the shopkeepers and I were talking and it got on to the homeless people, Particular one man named Ryan( not his real Name) anyways the shopkeeper was saying she had to throw him out because he kept on asking for smokes and did not want to pay for them. She is always calling the police telling them that Ryan is scaring people because he walks up and down the sheet yelling stop following me. Anyway a month later he was in jail for something I not sure of. The shop keeper and I were talking about him again and I said that he was not a good man and I hope he gets help in jail. She pipe up and said I don't care what his childhood was like why should we spend money giving them doctors to talked to they just to choose a different way of living. I was pretty thrown but I said to her that we don't sit in doctors offices all day and talk about our childhood. well, i don't. some of have a chemical imbalance which causes us to have mental illness The next day I went back and saw her gave her some literature on mental illness. She has said nothing to since. So no I don't think the world is ready to understand because of the silence surrounding it and media portraying so badly for so long I think once it is talked about like any other illness eg: Cancer. So I think we should give and spend the funds for mental illness on finding better treatments and a cure. maybe by fundraising the message would get out to people more. They would be more open to asking what cause mental illness. Happy mental health week PEACE TO EVERYONE  ... View more

Love this it's so good that we can start looking after the blue collar workers. I wish them success and may they always have funding. ... View more

I would not say a word I would just hug myself. ... View more

Hey, @Getting2 I'm sorry you are going through such a hard time. I've been where you are more times than I'd like to admit. The very fact you said how wonderful your wife means you must love her very much. And she loves you. Your chronic pain must make you miserable and that could be adding to your depression. But only you and your doctor can know that. Like I said I've been there with migraines and depression and anxiety. The one thing that did help my relationship was writing down how wonderful my partner was and give it to them. make a point of thanking them for all they do. Explain to them that is hard to support them when your feel like shit. And also tell them that you're doing everything possible to get better. I found being really honest can take the pressure off you. I hope you feel better soon. PEACE. And I do hope I get to talk to you again ... View more

Thanks, everyone, I'm never have been overbearing. I think maybe just try to concentrate on hubby and me for awhile and let the kids live their own life and trust in myself enough that I did enough. I'm sure they are good human beings have not seen them on the six a clock news. lol. And hope they will call me if they need me.   ... View more

I think not understanding is a good thing because it opens a person up to understanding, Winston Churchill who was Prime Minister of United Kingdom during world war two suffered from Bipolar. He once said you can't throw stones at every dog that barks at you. Take the same philosophy can't fight stigma all the time. I'd rather donate my time and money to research that can find a cure for all Mental illness. if people would fundraise for this and the media would concentrate on reporting fundraising events more. it might change ignorant people. Unfortunately, mental illness is a fact ... View more

Hey @Jewels Don't b worried about your dribbling. I have a great story to tell you about dribbling. When I was about 20 My ex-husband took me to meet his Father and step-mother. Being from a very poor Family I felt very intimidated by all the Money and huge house they lived in. Anyway, we had dinner that went ok. We then went to the lounge room for coffee. My ex-husband and his Father and stepmother were having a very long conversation and the lounge was so comfortable I feel asleep on the cushion on the lounge next thing I know was my ex waking me up saying I was dribbling all over the cushion and my chin. lol,  they were a bit snobby so that display was a bit embarrassing but I can look back and laugh, At least you have an excuse, but I understand where you're coming from. Not fun but hopefully the meds work. Got another story for you along the same lines about 6 years ago After I meet my now husband, My father in law invited us to go to church with them. I wore a dark coloured linen dress any way we were sitting in the middle of the church and this church sings a lot, not being a good singer myself I said to my husband you should sing I forgot I had never heard him sing omg. he was so loud and off tune, I could not hold it back started laughing so hard and quietly, that I wet myself. so embarrassing I just left and went back home when I got home to my horror big wet patch on the bottom of my dress. Had to apologise to my in-laws but they were ok. when I'm well I do see the funny side to life, but life is shit sometimes. Keep just a few minutes a day to find something to laugh at @Jewels if it can't laugh at yourself put a funny movie on. talk next time @Hope77  ... View more

Hey @Jewels that's got to be tough. So sorry you have to do that. I found it hard just writing a will and buying funeral bonds. I haven't been around either being finding out who is doing research into Complex Mental illness so I could make a small donation. as well My hubby not well this week with swollen foot due to many Colon Cancer operations. But at least he cancer free. Feel scared of asking sweetheart but do you think your time is near. or are you just being organised? Hopefully the later. Had a funny thing happen this week. Left my phone at the local Woolworths. Got home did not realize for about an hour. Panic set in then realised, rushed down, Went to the counter and the best-looking guy shop assistant in his 40's was serving. Anyway, embrassrest I asked did you find a phone, as I stood there my knee felt weak and I just fell down. He and another assistant ran around to me, I must have been twenty shades of red(face) They were going to call the ambos, but I said no I'm ok. Anyway got my phone back rang hubby who hobbles down to get me. As I got home I said Shit I left my purse on the counter. So had to go back and get it. If I was a drinker I felt this was a perfect time to have one. lol. I do hope you're ok. I just know you are a good person and pray that you enjoy a little of life. I pray for you not that I'm pushing religion on you I pray because I do care. ... View more

I think therefore I am   ... View more

thanks @Former-Member that is getting closer to what i was looking for. ... View more

Thanks @Appleblossom and @mrkotter I really love SANE as a group who not only support each other and at times have been my life saviour( can't stress that enough) But I'm also wanting a cure. I have thought about this a lot. I am not discounting the effort that is being put in for the fight against stigma. I would like to see more on the fight for a cure. It is so important to keep up the management of this illness but I would ultimately like a cure. Or just some evidence of such. ... View more

Thanks @Appleblossom I believe that mine is mainly an imbalance in my chemicals. So I'm looking for a research group who are studying this. Can't seem to find any? or it is shrouded in secrecy like a lot of things these days lol ... View more

Hey, @Kurra. So glad i helped you on R U OK Day. I am has help me more times then i can remember. ... View more

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thank you @utopia wish I could send each one us a real Gold star so everyone could see how hard we work.   ... View more

Hey,@mixedman, Have you tried moving closer to where your treatment is. Could you not contact Centrelink and ask for disability Support. you have a great sense of what you're capable of. Hang on to that and when your ready you can find work. Ask your doctors to give you a letter to give to Centrelink. And get away from your family they don't deserve you. wish you peace and hope the future comes quicker than you think and you can return to Melbourne where you're appreciated  ... View more

Hey @Jewels been away for a couple of days to a place called Gympie. My husband wanted to buy a new car. It seemed silly to go that far away just to buy a car but the older I'm getting the more I'm seeing what makes us happy is seeing others happy, and that is not silly. last night we stayed at a hotel and after dinner, we went for a walk love the clean air of country towns, anyway, when we were coming back we saw an echidna it hid behind a post never seen one in real life I just wish I had brought my phone so I could have taken a photo. but it so great to see. where I live is just urban sprawl. I read a little about motor neurone and I'm glad yours is a slow one. You can catch your breath between stages. Not bloody fair thou. All I can say about you family is only you have the right to how you feel about their treatment of you. It's their job to stop the rot of denial and treat you with the respect you deserve and always have deserved.      take care @Jewels O I'll read more on Motor neurone. ... View more

Hey, @Jewels Yeah I have been busy today and also when I post something I have to leave and come back to see if you have posted back. I think we won't set a time. we should just post when we can. if that's ok. like the snail mail. lol. I was really interested in your diagnoses of motor neurone. you have to be tough to deal with that. I hope I can give you enough friendship to maybe carry you through a little. you also said that you wanted to know why you family treated badly. my family brothers and sisters mainly treated be like shit. and thought it was funny. my mother beat me on several occasions so much so I used to go to school not only bruises but wet underwear and other children would laugh at me and say I stunk. I had no one to defend me. that is only one story. many more, but I'd rather talk to you about how I overcame the hurt. first, I went through the grief of it when I was about 25. then for many years I question it why? then I cut my brothers and sisters off and my mother. but only my mother for a little. because she had bipolar plus she was abused by her family. we never talked about it. I sensed that it was too hard for her. I just forgave her. but still, at 52 I have not got a relationship with my brothers or sister I can't forgive them because they still treat me badly. So I don't have anything to do with them. Some people admit they wrong and change or get help to change. Some people just live life and don't care who they hurt. because it's too hard for them to change but mostly they have to be right.i have a husband who I married last year and he loves me and my son from a previous marriage that's all I have and that's enough for me and can't forget some really good people here.had a tough day today but getting better as night falls. how's you day been ... View more

Hey @Faith-and-Hope and @Decadian Have a bright son, talk to him just now. He said turn my anger and frustration into passion and hope. love this kid only 23  ... View more

I'll try, feel I'm running out of time on this earth and more than ready for a change. Got to go and do some exercise now. Thank you for talking to me. I hope you have a peaceful day. ... View more

Thanks, @Faith-and-Hope. But I feel you can't fight the lack of compassion with compassion You have to call them out. It's a rocky road but I'd rather go down fighting then just go down. ... View more

what makes a human being. nice to deal with? we have ears we have feelings are we not there or are we just a target to them because they think we are weak or is it they don't matter we just blame it on their illness. I want a revolution to stop this rot it seems to be everywhere. EMPOWER  PEOPLE. Let's GET OUT OF THE SHADOWS. ... View more

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope will do that it's a good idea. feel like taking up boxing thou if my hands were in better shape. humor can help thou. sometimes I think I should give up on the ideal of good treatment and just accept what I can get. blah blah ... View more

Just fighting stigma to the very ones that a suppose to be their for us. looking for change but not sure if i'll ever see it in my lifetime ... View more

how are you doing @Faith-and-Hope   ... View more