@Fullofhope79 Not sure what to say other than 'I hear you' at the moment I am feeling similar emotions right now to what you have shared and unsure where to turn, like you quitting is not an option for me, the person I fell in love with is still trapped inside there somewhere. I recently snapped in response to something saying some unkind works and drove off in the car, that is not who I am and I am not ok with that, this weighs heavy on my heart. That was at the point of 'I cant do this any more, Bye' - counselling is not an option for us other than to 'sort me out' because I am the problem I am grateful that someone I trust has seen me sinking and has reached out, we are catching up for coffee early next week. Contemplating not going to work tomorrow in which case there may even be an opportunity to catch up tomorrow. Family activity planned on the weekend that has the potential to be a pressure cooker on account of being in public around people, and a long day. Past experiences gives cause for concern around safety in the return commute. If I were to say no because.... then I am the villain, so I do what I can and make the most of the opportunity for a happy adventure. So in light of that walking along side you and trust there can be some peace and direction for you both in the near future.
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