@ENKELI i was asleep but i have woken up in a bit of a panic so working on calming myself down so I can hopefully get back to sleep soon.    Hope you can get some rest to sweetheart . ... View more

@ENKELI it most definitely is, just focusing on taking things one second at a time. Glad to be hanging in there together with you . Awww you don't have to do that for me sweetheart, it's such a pleasure knowing you and being able to be here for you . ... View more

Oh my sweet @ENKELI I know the feeling but you will always have a place in my heart and here in Saneland .    My week is, well I'm not sure really. I just feel like I'm existing without any purpose (I'm safe).  ... View more

Hello @ENKELI sweetheart, have missed you. Hope you are doing ok ... View more

Hello @Jynx, it's so lovely to have you back. I hope you had a good break and enjoyed your Christmas and new years. Stella is gorgeous and such a chill girl.    I am trying to take it slow, things are still incredibly tough and it feels like life just keeps throwing things to test me when I'm already at breaking point. (I'm safe).   Hope to chat to you sometime soon when you've caught up on things. Have a good night and thanks for the hugs ... View more

Hello @Sunnyside226, thinking of you my awesome friend, hope you are doing well .       ... View more

Hello sweet @Bow, I can completely relate to this. From the outside people don't see how much I'm struggling on the inside. When I say I'm not ok, I'm usually just met with 'well you look well and like you're taking care of yourself, you'll be ok'. It's incredibly frustrating and I'm sorry that you feel this way.    For me just before Christmas my doctor did a referral to a mental health service, even after I told this service that I had plans (I'm safe) as were stated in the referral they were still convinced that I would be ok and that I could wait until the new year for them to offer any support. My doctor made this referral urgent and said I needed immediate support but I was let down. I had to get through alone with no support other than here, it was a random act from a stranger that basically saved my life on new years eve.    Just because someone looks, dresses and seems to be ok from the outside it doesn't mean that they are ok mentally and that's something that needs to be changed.    Sending you hugs sweet ... View more

@NightFury that's exactly right sweet, it's completely ok to take your time.    I know it's hard to put your hand up for support, but also know that you deserve that support. Again it's not a decision you need to make today. But maybe weighing up the pros and cons here might help in the decision making process.  ... View more

@NightFury i hear you sweet and it sounds very overwhelming. I think breaking it down into smaller, more manageable steps might make things a bit easier. What do you think?    As for uni it may be worth applying for, it doesn't mean that you have to use it but having it there as an option could be helpful just in case it's needed at any stage. But it's completely up to you sweet.    No matter what happens, I'll be here to support you every step of the way ... View more

Hello @Cuddlebear my sweet, i am doing ok. Its been a long day today so I'm just relaxing with Casper and Stella. How are you going beautiful?  ... View more

@Cuddlebear I'm sure they are going to get up to so much mischief together, hours of smiles and laughter are coming i think ☺️ ... View more

@NightFury i see it as a big day sweet, it's all those little things that add up. But you have done so well to get through it all and I'm proud of you .   Doing our Lego tomorrow sounds perfect ☺️.   They rang just as I was leaving to go to my doctors appointment so i didn't get to answer the call. I will call them back tomorrow.      ... View more

@NightFury she's definitely going to be a big girl.    I've been the same today and had a few overwhelming moments. It has been a big day for you so I think having dinner and an early night sounds like a good idea. Maybe tomorrow if you aren't busy and we are both feeling up for it we could do some Lego ☺️ ... View more

Thankyou my sweet @Bunniekins, she's got a very cute smile ☺️ ... View more

@NightFury she's got a few breeds in her being great dane, mastiff and wolfhound.   Casper follows her everywhere, he loves her and she loves him.    She is 17 weeks old ☺️.   I hear you sweet, are you doing some self care for yourself?      ... View more

@Flutterbug9 there's a whole queen size bed here and Casper sleeps on my pillow so I don't mind sharing . ... View more

@NightFury thankyou sweet, I'm so happy and so is Casper ☺️.   How are you feeling?  ... View more

@NightFury she's mine now ☺️. ... View more

Thankyou @Flutterbug9, she's a very sweet girl but she's going to be very big. She's only 17 weeks old and already the size of Casper ... View more

Hello @Captain24, so good to hear from you sweet ☺️.   I get itchy from the grass aswell and my grass is the same, doesn't matter how much i water it, it is always dry. My feet are so sensitive . Fingers crossed you will get some rain soon, we will go months without rain here now unfortunately.    The stars really are beautiful, I actually did go out last night looking at them ☺️.    Oh that's so scary with your dog but I'm glad she is ok. They can overheat very quickly in the hot weather. I'm always worried about Casper being that he's all black but on hot days we only go outside to the toilet. It's good that you will be home with the heatwave, it's 41⁰ here tomorrow so my aircon will be on for both Casper and Stella ☺️.   Haha oh the amount of toys Casper has is ridiculous but he's got Stella to share them with now. Casper also got ones for Christmas and he'll get some for his birthday when he turns one. Noone comes over my house other than if someone is coming to do work here.    Casper loves his toys and is always playing with them ☺️   I got a little bit of sleep last night, the pain has eased a bit now which is good but I had to stop the antibiotics cos it was affecting my tummy.    How are you feeling today sweet?  ... View more

So something exciting happened today, Casper and I had a meet and greet and well everyone meet Stella ☺️     @Bunniekins @NightFury @AlwaysMyself @Flutterbug9 @Captain24 @Cuddlebear @Sunnyside226 @Jynx @rav3n @Ru-bee @AuntGlow @RiverSeal @MJG017  ... View more

Hello my sweet @Bunniekins, it's a very hot day here today. Hope you are having a lovely day. Love you beautiful ... View more

Hello sweet @Meowmy, you're so welcome. You take care of yourself too ... View more

@NightFury i think we all need that reminder sometimes, our brains often focus on trying to solve everything at once.    I'm glad the walk was ok, i bet Luna loved all the smells along the way ☺️.   Oohhh a pastie sounds yummy and I'm glad you have a nice hot coffee, the nespresso machine sounds like a great purchase for you. You reminded me that I have some plums and nectarines to munch on, I might have them later today.    I hope lawn bowls training goes well for you sweet.    Thankyou, if it all works out I'll definitely share with you ☺️ ... View more

@AlwaysMyself haha oh this sounds like such an adventure, it put a smile on my face while reading it ☺️. I'm glad you got to brush Mr fluffy butt a bit   Casper doesn't sit still long enough to be brushed .     ... View more

@NightFury that sounds like a good plan sweet and I'm hoping it will help to slow or stop the spiral.    I get what you mean, today seems to be going fast. I've not done much myself but I did have something to eat and chatted to a friend for a while which was nice. How was the walk with Luna?    Some food and a coffee sounds perfect ☺️.   It is still happening, it will be after my doctors appointment which isn't until 2.10pm.  ... View more

You're so very welcome @Zoe7, hope you are doing well ... View more

@NightFury I'm sorry things are progressing downwards. Can we maybe see if we can slow or even stop that spiral?    I'm really glad the referral has gone through and that you've got a list of options. But you don't have to make a decision today, maybe today just have a look at what one's are available and seeing if any stand out more than others. It's hard also if they are too expensive but sometimes there is a bit of a window for negotiation with costs which is something to maybe look into if you find one that's suitable.    I completely get why what has surfaced for you sweet and I get the same way, it's ok to pause from it and come back to it later if it's feeling like too much right now.    My morning has been ok, I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed so I've decided to put a movie on and do some painting while I wait for my doctors appointment later today.  ... View more

@AlwaysMyself I'm going to start the one with the bear on it ☺️. Just working on what colours I want to use.    I hear you sweet, I'm the same, it's good catching up on posts but then once it's done it's sort of like well now what do I do with myself.    Oh I understand that irritation, I get the same way with noises. Thankfully Casper very rarely barks but it's other noises that get to me, like the neighbours kid jumping on the trampoline and the squeak of the springs cos it's just constant and regular with every jump.    Laying down sounds like a good plan, even if you can just rest for a while.    I'm with you with the no motivation, I was meant to have an inspection on the 8th but I emailed to cancel it cos I just can't, not with the tooth pain and the way my mental health is at the moment. I did try to do a bit of cleaning this morning but I started getting overwhelmed with not knowing where to put things. So I sat down and put a movie on instead and now I'm going to do some painting.    Haha oh your grumpy male dog, he's just teaching those cars a lesson ☺️.   Sitting with you sweet, sending you hugs     ... View more

Hello @AlwaysMyself my sweet, yes any support is better than nothing, especially at the moment.   I'm really hoping they come soon for you and that they are supportive. I'm the same and don't like waiting around, like when someone says they'll come between 1-4pm it's frustrating.    I'm about to do some painting myself cos I need a distraction for a while.    How are to feeling today sweet? ... View more