Hello and stuff.

[Kagirion]

Ugh...

I should keep this short as it's (I think?) my first post here.

[I'm a pan, 38 year old autistic guy.

I need/want more supports, and social ones with which to discuss and share life with, that I don't have to pay (support workers)]

I am so sick of feeling/being alone.

Things have improved a lot I guess but..I dont know, not enough. I do have SOME people in my life but...it doesn't feel enough, real enough or organic and natural, healthy.

And I guess the pain is growth...but.."the pain hurts and I don't like it".

I should stay off reddit...a lot of those people are...repressed and vile fascists, and I end up the bad guy basically due to this and mob mentality.

I am so sad that...we all don't meet/talk to eachother about real stuff/our lives.

Most people seem so "happy", lost in their this or that, yet so many seem so unhappy, and/or think their projections of such are convincing.

I guess I am mostly talking about myself as my..."friend/support network" is very...absent.

I'm sick of interacting with the cruel projecting dullards (unsupported and repressed) of the world (largely online, of course), I want much more real connections.

I have a bit on my mind as usual. I have not felt good lately, but that also seems usual.

/shrug/sigh/

I don't know...

"How are you?"

"Lol".

[holdinghope5]

Hi @Kagirion 

Welcome to the forums and thanks for sharing. I think a lot of us can relate to feeling alone and lonely, sounds like you've come to the right place. We've got some social spaces on the forums that you can join in on and connect with likeminded members. We also have 'social chats' on Friday, Saturday and Sunday evenings, here's a link to the recent one (there's a new thread posted each week): Sunday Social chat 6/7/2025 - SANE Forums

One of the members recently created this thread which I think you might like too: Welcome to the smile zone!

You're not alone. 

[Kagirion]

Well thanks, bossmod-person.
I hope I lurk here/make good use of this service/space and be a help to myself and others. :3

[holdinghope5]

@Kagirion 

I want to share a quick tip with you - you can tag members you want to respond to by using the @ symbol and then typing the username and selecting it, like this @Kagirion. This ensures that the person you've tagged will be notified of your response. 

I look forward to seeing you around the forums space!