TW: The 'real' me inside - I come with an SI warning

[AlwaysMyself]

Yikes bushfires! I guess it is that time of the year 😬. @Till23 . Hope they remain under control and dont get closer to you (or anyone else!). 

I remember those floods, your posts - thats when i got to know you first around that time. Leaking roof i think i recall?

[Till23]

Yes that's right @AlwaysMyself flooding rains with a leaky roof back then. Now bushfires. Living in Australia is interesting in more ways than one!

I hope you have been going well and your back is not too bad. It's good that you were able to help out your mum in the garden. Remember not to overdo it!

Your painted figurine is great it looks like it could be a good thing to do to get into a kind of flow state and do more than just distract yourself but actually settle your thoughts

[Chasingsunsets]

Hi @AlwaysMyself 🫶, just on briefly, wanted to check in! How’s your evening going? I loved the painting you posted earlier!! 🤩

I wasn’t sure what posts you would like to be tagged in at the moment so only just tagged you in dreamy’s page the silly sock one that you said you liked 💚

Big hugs and hope to be on the forum more soon 🙏

[Cuddlebear]

@AlwaysMyself  Hello my friend. How are you? How was work today? 

I really like your mum. I love how she’s there for you and that you have someone who cares at home. Yes I agree the difference in having someone who actually cares and is there for chats and company makes a huge difference. You deserve it and I’m sure you also provide her with love and company too. 

My daughter lives far from me and due to finances we can’t see each other often. I’ve always had a close relationship with her. However, as her mum I also try not to burden her with my mental illness at the moment. She’s only in her very early 20’s and her grandmother (my mum) died by suicide which greatly impacted her and me. Hence, I just can’t put her through this too. She’s young and I don’t want to cause her distress. She knows I’m unwell but doesn’t know the severity. I love her with all my heart and soul and want to try and protect her. 

How are you feeling today after the garden work? I know you live with pain and I really hope you are not in severe pain today. It’s so good you were able to enjoy some gardening together. That’s the sort of stuff life is all about. I’m also thrilled that you are ok with her helping financially. I really am and it will make a huge difference not having to worry and being able to focus on more recovery. 

Love your painted figurine it’s something I’d pick up to paint! We have the same taste in this stuff! 

Ps Support button not working for me again! 

[AuntGlow]

Good evening! @AlwaysMyself

How are you feeling today? 

I am going to respond to your message first thing tomorrow afternoon, but just wanted you to know so I am not leaving you hanging! 🫶

Also, hello @Cuddlebear, how are you lovely? Thinking of you. 💖

[AlwaysMyself]

Its amazing my support button has been workinf again this evening for me! @Cuddlebear @Chasingsunsets @Till23 🤭

Thank you @Chasingsunsets 😊 still getting through my backlog of tagged post emails due to being on less the past week or so lol. I'm up to "2 days ago" posts 😅. 

I'm feeling better after discussing the situation with my mother and her continued offer for financial support next year whilst i dont have an income.

@Cuddlebear ah, i forgot your daughter lived far away. That makes sense. I'm sorry, I didnt know (or forgot) your mum passed from suicide. *hugs* i can understand how that could trigger fear and worry in her for your wellbeing also. 

I hope you know you are loved and cared for unconditionally here, and its totally safe and OK by me for you to share those thoughts here - no matter how dark your thinking may get sometimes. I know you are battling and you're putting your all into making it through every day despite the anxiety and depression and loneliness and physical challenges too. I admire how you are trooping through, and I am so hopeful for the symptoms to begin to settle a bit for you to give you even a tiny bit more relief each day/week.

@Till23 oh dear my brain has now melted 😆 because i read your post first, so now i have forgotten what i was going to say. 

I know the bushfires are currently quite concerning, thinking of you and your safety with them. I remember feeling nervous about the Jan 2020 bushfire that came very close to my place, we were on alert for possible evacuation at any time if the winds changed direction. 

[AlwaysMyself]

Naughty naughty @AuntGlow - its 15min past your bedtime! 🤣 (i.e 10:15pm) 😁😆 

Have a lovely sleep and rest. No pressure to reply even tomorrow if things get busy & others need more urgent responses 😊. I believe in triage.

[holdinghope5]

@AlwaysMyself @AuntGlow 😂😂😂

[AlwaysMyself]

Glad i gave you a laugh @holdinghope5 . 😊

Hope you are having a good evening, and thank you for being a trusty mod. I see your support posts to people around the place when they're in some really tough spots at the time. 🥰

Actually i think you were the first to respond to my early post too months ago 🤔.

Oops i should also be going to sleep too. Take my own verbal medicine 😅. Work tomorrow!

But I'm down to responding to posts from only 24 hours ago now 🤣🤣🤣

[holdinghope5]

Awww, always here for you @AlwaysMyself, 

And glad I was able to respond when you needed the support as well. ☺️

We appreciate how much you connect with and support our community, you're really wonderful at it!

Remember to take lots of breaks and always let us know when you're needing a listening ear. 🫶