Lived Experience Forum

[Eve7]

I am so sorry your pdoc visit was  so short @Bow that is not right at all.

I can understand you being anxious about tomorrow’s appointment sweetie. I get really anxious prior to appointments too and I even told my pdoc that I didn’t want to waste her time yesterday so you’re not alone on that one.

I’ll pray for you in the morning...that’s all I can offer as well as some hugs and a chai with you afterwards.

Sleep well. 💜💚🦋🤗🙏🤗🦋💚💜

[Bow]

Thanks @Eve7 @outlander 

I should be asleep but am wide awake still.

@outlander my psychologist put through a referral for a case manager for me- I've been accepted but not allocated one yet. Will be some extra support considering my psychologist is not full time. I do have some goals other than my mental health, my psychologist sometimes reminds me of them. I think perhaps they will be things that my case manager will help me with too. 

[Bow]

Drowning tonight

dont know why I am here 

[Jynx]

Sitting with you @Bow. What might help you stay afloat tonight? 

[Bow]

It's a dark dark night @Jynx 

been hit from all directions today 

[Jynx]

@Bow I'm sorry to hear that today has been difficult in multiple ways. Anything you need to get off your chest? 

[Bow]

My dietitian appointment was really challenging today. It's really hard to accept how unwell I am when my ED screams the opposite at me. When my dietitian wants me to put boundaries in around the things that I do to help me cope. 

I feel really disconnected tonight like I'm watching from outside it doesn't feel good

[Jynx]

@Bow Accepting how unwell we are is really scarysometimes. I feel you on that one, it took me many, many years to actually realise how much I needed help, because my brain decided it was too painful to admit how bad things were.  

Is this feeling of disconnection something you've experienced much before? Sounds a bit like you might be experiencing dissociation, which makes sense as often it is a way for the mind to cope with incredibly distressing experiences. You could always engage in some grounding, it typically helps us to reconnect with the present moment. 

[Bow]

Perhaps

jus feel myself sinking deeper tonight

no hope 

I'll log off before I'm in trouble 

[Jynx]

Do what feels right for you @Bow, especially if talking about things is currently not helpful for you. I know today was tough, I hope tomorrow is better for you. 

And of course, please reach out to your supports as needed. And you can always ask a helpline for support in doing a grounding exercise. 

Sending many hugs to help you through