Looking for advice

[P12]

I think my goal of independence is also obstructed by other people.

If I were fully independent I would be able to walk through nature without interacting with other people. However, the world has other people in it. My belief, right or wrong, is that I experience more negative than positive effects from others because my brain is different to most. When I am not intentionally excluded I am unintentionally excluded.

I am sad that I cannot connect fully with nature because others have obstructed it or damaged it.

My understanding is that a perfect person could walk through the world in a bubble without being affected by others, but no person is perfect.

[P12]

I am looking for the following in a friend.

Someone who:

- I can practice compassion with.

- Wants to spend time with me and I with them.

- I can meet once a month on average.

- Is human, and I can see in person.

- I don't have to pay, or who I have to pay only a small amount.

- Shares my upbringing, interests, and values.

- Can work on long term goals with me. 

Overall the feedback I have guessed is that most people I meet cannot determine what value I will give them and therefore determine that there is no benefit in being my friend.

[P12]

I don't feel well psychologically at the moment. I think I have progressed through three phases of distress. I think I have progressed through three phases of distress. I am safe but I don't feel well.

[Shaz51]

Sitting with you @P12 🥰

@tyme 

[RiverSeal]

Hey @P12, sorry to hear that you are feeling distressed at the moment. 

It's great that you are sharing your thoughts with the Forums, and I encourage you to continue to reach out to the community. Do you have someone close to you or someone that you can talk to? Sometimes it can be beneficial to have a conversation with someone when we feel like this. Or do you need to reach out to a support line like Beyond Blue or Lifeline to get a little extra support? RiverSeal 

[tyme]

Hey @P12 ,

Sorry to hear you aren't feeling so good right now. 

What's happening for you?

We're here if you need someone to sit with you.