We are conditioned to act in a certain way through the socialisation process and experiences from childhood. I was a obese child from the age of 2-3,early teenage years 13-14 lost 7 stone with Jenny Craig put it back on lost 55 kgs in late 20s.Because I couldn't cover this up my weight was used as a weapon to control me and for pathetic people to put me down to make themselves look good,whether it was in the schoolyard,or a adult who thought you needed to be told you were fat.I now get quite annoyed when you see relatives who the first thing to come out of their mouth is something like "You've lost weight!"or something that makes you feel inferior.It is like on reflection living in a small town knowing boys who are now known to be gay,but could never "come out"and say so ,tried to date girls to "cover up and be the "norm" of society,whatever that is who knows?One boy I knew at school,you knew was different through physiological differences to other boys and got bullied by other boys but could never admit he was gay or allowed to accept it .As mentioned,my weight problems and the judgements that went with it caused great trauma and contributed to my spiral into anxiety and depression with severe suicidal thoughts .No one is perfect ,but some of us know that more than others.
